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Notes.
What I'm reading, making, and arguing with.
- 2026 · 06The spontaneity you admire was never spontaneousThere’s a phrase I came across on Substack a few days back that I’ve been thinking about. “Live a disciplined life, spontaneously.” Four words that aren’t supposed to fit in the same sentence. I keep turning it over, and the more I do, the more I think the people who say it are usually selling you the wrong half of it.
Why do we treat discipline and spontaneity like enemies?
Why do we assume the person living free is the person living without a plan?
Because that’s the story we’ve been handed
- 2026 · 06High Quality Is an Act of AggressionEarlier this week I wrote one line and couldn’t put it down.
“High quality is an act of aggression against a world that is completely comfortable with mediocrity.”
I posted it, watched it sit there, and then spent the next three days arguing with it. Not because I think it’s wrong. Because I wanted to know if it was actually true, or if it was just the kind of thing that feels good to say when you’re tired and a little proud of something you made.
So I want to work through it with you guys. W
- 2026 · 06Building for the Decade, Not the DashboardI leave my gym bag on the back seat of my car. It’s still damp from the morning’s workout. I walk into the Rust office and sit down at my desk, moving the mouse to wake up the screen. A harsh blue light hits the wall. A line graph shows up. It tracks views and followers. These numbers pretend to be useful data. Really, they work just like a slot machine that keeps you pulling the lever.
I watch people on the internet calling themselves creators. Most of them just look tired. They are running on
- 2026 · 04Why Time Feels ThinYou are sitting on the couch on a Sunday evening, and you are trying to remember what you did on Wednesday. Not the meetings, those are on a calendar, but the actual day, what it felt like, whether anything happened in it that belonged to it and nothing else. The memory does not come. Wednesday has blurred into Tuesday, and Tuesday has blurred into Monday, and the week behind you is one long stretch of hours that went through you without leaving a mark. You did things. You were, in any real sens
- 2026 · 04What Compression CostsI killed most of my interests last year. Not in the dramatic way that sounds, not some bonfire of old identities, but in the quiet administrative way that things actually die when you decide to get serious. I stopped designing for fun. Stopped building systems that had no audience. Stopped letting curiosity alone justify a new project. I took everything I'd been doing across half a dozen surfaces and compressed it into one thing, one studio, one domain, one name, and told myself this was the mov
- 2026 · 04The People I Keep CitingI have made a self-admitted critical error in this series. I have been citing the same six writers across multiple papers, leaning on their ideas, building arguments on top of their arguments, and I have never properly introduced any of them. I have treated them like old friends at a dinner party who everyone already knows, and that is not fair to anyone reading this for the first time.
So this is the correction. These are the six thinkers whose work sits underneath everything I have been writi
- 2026 · 04Perspective Is the ProductMeaning used to be simple. For most of history, someone handed it to you. A priest, a king, a book, a tradition. You were born into a structure that told you what mattered, what to do with your time, and what your labor was for. The structure could be oppressive, often was, but it answered the question that most people now can't answer at all, which is why any of this matters.
Then we got smarter, supposedly. We traded the divine framework for a productive one. Meaning stopped being inherited a
- 2026 · 04Choosing Felt Like DyingI spent years telling myself that having a lot of interests was a strength. And it was, in the sense that it gave me range I wouldn't trade. I could design a site and write the copy and think through the funnel and run the ads. I could hold a conversation about philosophy and then go build something technical. The range was real. But what I couldn't do, what I avoided doing for longer than I want to admit, was choose. Because choosing meant killing, and killing meant admitting that some of the t
- 2026 · 04Evidence of ContactI started Muay Thai classes a few days ago. I have no idea what I'm doing. The combinations are foreign, my guard drops every time I throw a kick, and by the second round of pad work my lungs were burning so hard I could taste metal in the back of my throat. Actual blood-taste, that copper tang that shows up when your body is working past whatever line it thought it had. My arms were shaking when I unwrapped them afterward. My shins were raw. And standing in the parking lot trying to catch my br
- 2026 · 03The Competence FloorWhat happens when we optimize away the conditions that make tools usable
You have just finished something. A report, a proposal, a piece of writing that was due by end of day, and you produced it with the help of a tool that knows how to sound like you, or at least how to sound like someone competent. The document is clean. The structure is logical. The tone is steady and professional. You read it once, adjust a word or two, and send it. And then a strange quiet settles in, not guilt exactly, n
- 2026 · 02Vibe Coding Field ReportStudio KILN started the way a lot of real projects start, with a clear taste for what the thing should feel like, and almost no certainty about how to make it real. There was no software or web development background at the beginning, and there definitely was not a clean season of “learning first” followed by a clean season of “building later.” Most of what exists now got learned in motion, while shipping AI-enabled software at Rust Automation and Controls, and while trying to build a custom stu
- 2026 · 02To My MotherFor her birthday
- 2026 · 02What Building Actually Looks Like6:10am, the alarm goes off, the house is dark, and my brain is already doing that annoying thing where it tells me that I don’t really have to get up yet. 6:18, I’m standing in the middle of my room, trying to wake up, phone in my hand even though I don’t want it in my hand. 6:20, keys, shoes, jacket, same routine. 7:00 to 3:00, I’m at Rust Automation and Controls, building AI-powered software with a friend, same parking lot, same walk in, same fluorescent lights, the office has that quiet “ever
- 2026 · 02Life Without FrictionHow ease erodes ownership, memory, and gratitude
- 2026 · 02How I write research papers without getting stuck(Free guide inside)
- 2026 · 01Built to CountWhy modern work can't feel good
- 2026 · 01The Iron CageHow efficiency became a god
- 2025 · 08AI won't end creativitymy thoughts on ai after working with it every day
- 2025 · 07the yakuza's guide to babysittingthe beauty of being the shield
- 2025 · 07hell’s paradisewhat if you’re not too much?
- 2025 · 03Live like it matters(A letter to myself)
- 2025 · 03Try and live slowly(The modern world demands something different)
- 2025 · 01Why you need a mission statement(This will change the course of your life if you apply it appropriately)
- 2024 · 12A beautiful life is a good life(Theology of beauty and its importance for living well)
- 2024 · 12Rethink your training(Why hybrid training is the BEST training)
- 2024 · 12Minimize me, oh Lord(An essay)
- 2024 · 12Uproot the weeds in your mind(Why you should strive to get rid of clutter)
- 2024 · 12The case for getting lost(How curiosity will fuel a great life)
- 2024 · 12I won't rot in idleness(An essay)
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